Friday, 25 December 2015


You were caught up in worrying
How deep the ocean was
The unknown, the metrics
The littoral to the benthic
Anxious and thus paralyzed
You did not meet me at the shore
Did the depth of the ocean matter
When all that separated us
Was how it was wide?

Thursday, 17 December 2015


How long this mourning, when
does this grieving end, when
each and every morning it dies again

I'm smiling at everyone, when
I'm weeping deep down inside, when
I don't know how to live that way again

I'm blue, I'm red, I'm a million freaking shades
Every single day I'm in the black.

Tuesday, 15 December 2015

This Way

I am determined
To have you by my side
Even if you are a million miles away

I know that one day
You'll turn to me and smile
The same way you smiled when we fell

The way we fell in love
The way the sun shines upon my head
The way the snow begins to fall
The way the dandelions fly away far away

Monday, 7 December 2015

Up here

I let my tears blur the last sight of your departing back, if only I had stayed strong and let the last second to the last moment of you last
But I blinked and a tear dropped
And oceans erupted dividing us,apart
Since I lost you
I have fallen into graves
And broken the skins on my hands and knees
Trying to find you
I've kicked down doors
Built up bridges
I've gone higher and higher and higher
Achieving everything this common life you left me asked
I've made castles and towers
Escalating the highest mountains
I've gone up and up and up
Maybe I'll have a view one day
Up there
When I will find you again

Saturday, 17 October 2015

Because Even She Was Gone

Where are you? She cried
I'm in the hospital, I'm in pain.
I'm on a break, I'm having fun;
I've had great food! I'm on the train;

Can't stay now, gotta rush
Oh, how are you? Gone again.
I'm OK, she answers
Gritting teeth in pain.

Where are you? She cried
I really need you now.
So busy really, there's no time;
I'm really sorry, but ciao.

Where are you? She cried
I don't have anyone.
'K, listen, you're annoying now,
Just stop all this. I'm done.

That's ok - said no one.
Because even she was gone.

Monday, 12 October 2015


And every night I cannot sleep
For rains drum down as I weep
Until numbed, both heart and soul
As this weight takes its toll

I have become ice and stone
Without warmth, and so alone
But an ember must still burn
Though small it be, yet is discerned

Without this I should not care
And keep the night awake with tears
Though they dampen, falling down
One day this ember too shall drown.

Monday, 5 October 2015


I have traced the contours of your face
Along the edges of clouds
And whispered your name
To a dandelion seed before it blew free.
I don't know where I'm going
I don't know where I am
Every time I move forward
I am still left behind
I need you and you need me
But I whispered your name
And the seed grew a tree.
I have waited under these branches
Swinging to its tips
I have whispered your name to a birds nest
Your name like a kiss on the lips
One day, some day
You'll come back
And tell me where I am
Tell me where I am going
And whisper to me my name.

Originally posted on my private personal blog on Tuesday, 11 August 2015.Re-posted with my heart's consent.

Tuesday, 29 September 2015


There is a house
In a quiet, lonely quarter
Where the meadows meet
And the stars shine upon
Where the moon
And the sun
In turn reunite
In perfection, this house
There it is:
Built brick by brick
With such care and effort
Built so well it can never fall down
There is a house
Where the skies turn violet
A million hues before twilight
Sunrises and blue skies
And perfect puffs of cloud
Accompany the songs
Of a hundred trees surround
There is this house
Noone else knows
Built with our dreams
Built with our love
The rooms, silent,
Are filled with our hopes
And lined on every shelf
Sits each our memory
There is this house
Where it sits in emptiness
Waiting for us
  We have lost the way.

Originally posted on my private personal blog on Wednesday, 12 August 2015.
Re-posted with my own heart's permission.

Saturday, 21 February 2015

Do You

Do you remember the first time I told you I love you?
Do you remember the last time we danced in the snow
If you could remember the way I remember you
You would remember that I will forever do.

Tuesday, 17 February 2015


One day I will fall in love
And when I do
I will remember you
I will remember the falling
Of five million tears
And you counting them
One by one
As they fell
One day I will fall in love
And when I do
I will remember you
And remember that you
And I
Had fallen time and again
Each time
Affixed to the second hand
And hour hand
To meet only several times
As we go about our lives
In different velocities
How do we jump
Over this moving gap
Or slide ourselves together
Without time stopping
One day I will fall in love
And remember that its always been you